I'm constantly blogging twice a day. I'm bored. And I kept repeating myself. I'm officially moving tomorrow. I feel sad. Because at that area, there's no buses, no taxis, no lrt, no putra, no ktm, no nothing! I kept making some sense to my parents but it's a total lost. I don't understand. Seriously. I'm 22 and unemployed. What's even sadder is I'm still living with my parents. I needa get out. I wanna live by myself. It's not like I hate my parents nagging me, but I felt the need to be independent. I don't wanna stay under my mother's sarong anymore. So help me out. What should I do to make them understand?

I give up. But I'm not satisfied. I wanna fight until the end. I want them to allow me living myself. I don't need them to send a penny to me. I'll work my ass of it my way through it. Thinking of this, I wished I could fly off earlier. So I can get outta here ASAP. I have no one in Scotland. Many asked why would I still want to go there. That's the whole point. I wouldn't have chose Scotland if I have contacts there. The whole purpose of leaving Malaysia is to have a new circle of friends. I might experience culture shock or maybe even discrimination, but it's alright. I'll work through it.

Moreover, I'm not planning to come back. Well I haven't told my parents about it yet. They're assuming I'll come back and stay with them after I graduated. I have my own plans. Upon graduation, I'm allowed to work in Scotland for 2 years-any job. So in these two years, I'll try to get a job there and apply for PR. Well, to be honest, Scotland isn't really where I wanna live in. I guess you guys know pretty well yea. Yes, Japan. Even though, my dad has banned my plans to study in Japan, but I still can't give up of that place. Mada mada dane.

Crap. It's 7p.m. I need to get ready. I'm going to watch my long awaited movie - Transformers!! WooHooo. And best, it's gonna be in Imax. I went and bough the tickets on Monday. Yay. Off I go. Mada ne.

Arghz!!! I just felt the need to shout out. Pardon me. I did some packing last night. I packed my books and clothes. My parents are complaining that I have waay too many clothings. Plus, they saw me buying a few new ones last week. They shouted at me. Damn. How can they say I have many clothings? Because I can hardly find something to wear. And no I'm not kidding. My wardrobe are basically filled with t-shirts and jeans. Normal and simple apparel. After being nagged, I got fed up and decided to stop packing. I'm easily annoyed. When I'm already annoyed! What the hell am I talking about?? The heck.

Anyhow, I woke up this morning and found this Sony catalogue on the table. Great. I've got something to see...sounds pathetic? Not. Because I love looking at gadgets. I had my eyes on their mp3 players. Players, plural. So yes, a few of the models.

The first one is NW-E010 series. There are 5 colours for this - black, violet, pink, blue and gold. I think its pretty nice with the dimension of 82.9x22.4x13.6(mm). How can anyone resists this? Plus its only 28g. I think you can hardly feel on it. Moreover, it have 30 hours playback with just one hour full charge. What's in the player? It consists of 3-line colourful display, clock display, home menu display and also jacket search display. The jacket here refers to the album cover. Yes, so it's basically like an iPod nano, but it's so much cheaper. I'm eyeing for the 2GB which is going for RM399.

The second one is the NW-S700F series. This is Sony's first built-in noise cancelling walkman. Consisting of 3-line colour OEL display, 50 hours playback, jog shuttle operation, FM tuner and direct encoding, this is the advance model of the NW-010 series. I'm very attracted to it because it can seal off external noise. How does it work? They have this built-in microphones in the headphone buds that can detect the surrounding noise. The noise cancelling circuit then analyses ambient noise and generates inverse wave. The ambient noise wave is cancelled by the inverse sound wave, which results in clear audio experience. The 2GB player cost RM599.
So which should I get? I asked my mum. Again I got nagged. Well it's true I have my iPod vid. But I want that Sony mp3 player!!

Not forgetting to mention, I'm also attracted to some of their video cams. Damn. Its pissing me off that I can't afford to get all of those. Burn once said, want is not a necessity. True but I still can't help it. I have to get my hands on those.

*Pictures courtesy of www.sony.com.my

I'm dying from heat! It's so friggin hot here. But I refused to turn on the air-cond because I care for the ozone. I really do okay! Although I may not look like one who does. Find it intimidating? Don't. Because that's my nature. =)

As I stand under the blazing sun, I've decided to do my laundry. My clothes are piling up, and I have nothing left to wear. And best part, Sus is coming back. More reason to do my laundry today because We'll be going out tomorrow! Weehaaa. I just got a message from Sus this afternoon. She's coming back and invited me to lepak tomorrow. My days are very lonely without her around. I missed her a lot-her bubbly personality (note:you can call it sewel). Lol.

I was thinking, what is blog all about? I have some who say that they blog about their personal life. But how personal is that personal they're referring about? Will they tell out every single things that happened? Or maybe only to some extent? Many atimes I wanted to express out all my personal feeling, but i restrained myself. While typing, I did type out everything that happen in the day, but after reading it, I had to edit. Hell no, I can't post them here. So what do I do? I print it out and keep in a file...You think I really did that? Noo... After expressing, I just erased it. Lame. But who cares. I don't.

Ohh! I just finish downloaded Devil May Cry from AnimeOne fansub. Have anyone watched it? Never mind. I think I'm the only one here who watch anime. OMG...I'm so smitten with Dante! Their graphics are really nice, and the music came in at the right time. Dante might look tough and hard-hearted on the outside, but he's actually a very caring person. Gawd, I'm just glad that this game is being made into an anime. Because I'm not much of a game person. I'm looking forward for the next episode. =))

Lately I've been listening much to English musics. Everyone's giving me this one kind of look. And they asked "What's up with you and the English songs? I thought you're only into kamikaze??". Actually, the whole reason of me listening to whites is because I'm going to the UK soon. I thought it's a good idea to brush up my English. Lolx. Secondly, it's so pathetic that the clubs here don't play Jap music. Should there be a club that plays Japs, I would go everyday! I kid you not! And what's even sadder is that, so far, I haven't see any Jap group tour here in Malaysia. Think not many Malaysian listen to Japs? Well you will have to re-evaluate it.

Anyone is willing to invite me out? I think not. I'll take a nap. A hot nap. Damn.

1) Name one person who made you smile last night.
-->Quite a few. Donna, SiaPei, LeeYee and Lee.

2) What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
-->Duh! Sleeping of course.

3) What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
-->Checking on Friendster. Nothing new.

4) What was something that happened to you in 2006?
-->I used to have a good answer for this, but I can't remember now...

5) What is the last thing you said aloud?
-->Shanice!!!! (I was shouting actually)

6) How many different things did you drink today?
-->Only water. My body needs hydration.

7) What color is your hairbrush?
-->Uhm, it's wood and brown in colour.

8) What was the last thing you paid for?
-->My drink.

9) Where were you last night?
-->Out with the gals.

10) What color is your front door?
-->Grey-ish.

11) Where do you keep your change?
-->Everywhere convenient. Seriously. I even found four RM5 notes in my pocket few days back. God knows how long it's been in there.

12) What is the weather like today?
-->Hot. Hot. Hot.

13) What is the best ice cream flavor?
-->I'm a choc maniac. Need I say more?

14) What is something you are excited about?
-->I'm awaiting for Prisoin Break Season 3!!

15) Do you want to cut your hair?
-->I really do. In fact, I want it shorter but Micheal wouldn't allow. (note: he's my hairdresser)

16) Are you over the age of 25?
-->I wish I am.

17) Do you talk a lot?
-->I'm more of a listener than a talker.

18) Do you watch The O.C.?
-->Nope.

19) Do you know anyone named Francis?
-->Franky, yes.

20) Do you make up your own words?
-->I think I did, uncautionsly.

21) Are you typically a jealous person?
-->I do envy...but jealous...I'm not sure.

22) Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "A"
-->Alish. Missing you babe!

23) Name a friend whose name starts with the letter "K"
-->Keith.

24) Who’s the 1st person on your received calls list?
-->The last was Lee.

25) What did the last text message you received say?
-->I don't remember. And my cellphone is lying somewhere I don't know where.

26) Do you chew on your straws?
-->Sometimes.

27) Do you have curly hair?
-->Frizzy hair, yes.

28) Where is the next place you’re going?
-->My room. To bed.

29) Who is the rudest person in your life?
-->Ahh. When I was working, one of my colleague need my help to call one of his customer. She's a year older than me. And heck, the rudest among the rude people I've ever known/see. Matha-fucker.

30) What is the last thing you ate?
-->Rice with potatoes and scrambled egg.

31) Is marriage in your future?
-->Yes actually, if I found someone I like, and he must be richer than me.

32) What is the best movie you’ve seen in the past two weeks?
-->None so far. But I'm dying to watch Transformers and Die Hard 4.0

33) Is there anyone you like right now?
-->I like everyone. =)

34) When was the last time you did the dishes?
-->Erm...never?

35) Are you currently depressed?
-->Blogthings tested that I'm 48% depressed.

36) Did you cry today?
-->Nope.

37) Why did you answer and post this?
-->Because I was reading Elizabeth's blog and I found this. Ahh something to do to kill time.

According to Bloghtings, I am a depressed person. And my level of depression falls at 48%, which where I'm under the category of mild depression. However, it also states that I do not need help. But I want help. Anyone would kindly assists me in this?

Last night I went out for a drink with the bunch of gals, namely Donna, SiaPei and LeeYee. You will never believe what's our conversation was all about. Marriage and kids. Take that. However, it got me thinking. Thinking of whether I would want to get married or not. And I came to a conclusion. That is, I'll get married when I found someone richer than me. I told Burn about this. He got shock when he heard this. Being a finance student, I count wealth! Lolx. Why so? So when I marry that someone richer than me, I'll make him will all his properties to me. Then I asked, what is the possibility of your sister thinking the same way as me? And he say....exactly the same! Lolx.

Why is it when I want someone to go out with, there's none. And when I found an activity for myself, others start calling to ask me out. Something is wrong somewhere. Lee called last night when I was hanging out with my girlfriends. I was really tempted to go out with him. Then again, thinking I haven't meet LeeYee for quite some time, I told him next time.

I want to watch Hot Fuzz. But Burn is not around. I'm eagerly waiting to watch Transformers and Die Hard 4.0. Owh, when reading the newspaper, I flipped through the Star job classified. I saw a few data entry post that reads" home base job". I want to try. I need something to do to kill time. And above all, I need cash.

Have anyone watch Air? The anime AIR. I have to say, it's a very sad anime. The tears falling from my eyes is like the rain falling from the sky. It's actually a two-era anime. Not the best, but it's good enough. I would rate is 9/10. Seriously. The first anime that gave me a long good impression was Samurai Champloo, followed by Air. Next was Cowboy Bepop. I have to say I love the story. Plus the musics are so cool and funky. Evey anime that I discussed here are very shallow. Somehow, I can't express my love for anime through writing. I have to tell out, personally.

And Alish, I missed you dearly. I haven't seen you in one whole year! It's sad that Liverpool did not accept me, else we'll be like next to each other. What sad me more is I got rejected by Edinburgh. Arghz. There goes all my plans and dreams. Did I tell you that I'm taking flight straight to London instead of dropping by at Manchester? Because I have quite a lot of luggages. What am I bringing along? Basically my whole wardrobe. Lolx.

The internet connection has never been more sucky. I got disconnected every 12 hours. What the hell is wrong with Streamyx. I can't even do a decent download now. I'm dying to watch the remaining episodes of Beautiful Life and Hero by Takuya Kimura and Kamisama Mou Sukoshi Dake by Takeshi Kaneshiro. I'm addicted to Takeshi-kun more of course. The story is so sad.

Dull and pathetic day.

26th June, Tuesday,
It's been two days since Sus went back to Penang. I started thinking deep. And reflecting what have I done for this whole month. I started clubbing when Sus came back last month. We went to Aloha. And no, I haven't pick up the drinking and smoking habit. And I'm not planning to either. It's just that I got addicted to loud music, as in seriously loud music. Since then, we've been partying every Friday's and Saturday's night. Every, and yes I meant it. Think I'm crazy? Well I feel happy listening only to music, and I'm drunk just by listening to music. Lolx.

It's always been Aloha. Then Marcuz planned for this small reunion. And it was held at Rums Jungle. Again, I got drunk listening only to music. And that was the first time I danced. Don't ask how. It's just embarrassing. And the following week we went to The Loft. Ahh, I know nothing about the music there, thus I just sit silently and stare at people. I spotted this white tall guy. I didn't realize at first who he was. I thought he was cool. But when I flipped the magazine the next day, this mentholatum advert struck me. The white guy in the center was the guy I saw at The Loft. And hell yeah I'm positive. I might not be good in my studies, nor in any other things, but hell, I'm good in remembering faces and recognizing people. Then I was thinking, crap. I should've went and talked to him because Sus told me he was looking. Dang.

The Loft was the last. We didn't club anymore after that. I sort of lose the mood. But now, I'm missing it again. I want my loud music. I want to be drunk by music. I want to shout my heart out. But no, not time yet.

I've been busy packing my stuff since yesterday. I'm shifting to Sg. Buloh this Saturday. I'm feeling sad. Speaking of which, I just don't get it. Nobody seems to understand when I said I'm shifting to Sg. Buloh. I had to say I'm moving to Sg. Buloh-and only they understand. Is it the term I used or what? It's pissing me off.

Sometimes I do wonder, whether am I meant to live here, in Malaysia. Because I have too few friends who can actually communicate with me. English. And these few people are leaving. Which one has already left to Manchester, another in Sheffield, and one in Liverpool. Another would be leaving soon, in August-to US. That doubles my sadness. Well, I did took the effort to learn Chinese and communicate with others. That tripples my sadness and I felt pathetic. So now, I'm feeling hallow. I don't know why.

Just two days back, which falls on Sunday I took my handphone and started calling everyone on my phonebook list. But all are unreliable. Everyone's busy. Or they did not want to go out. A blow in my face. What are friends for? The only person I could rely on is Burn and Sus. Burn, hurry and come back. I'm dying of boredom and rotting staying at home.

That aside, it's sales now! SALES! I used to love sales because its sales! But this year, I've lost all my mood. I can't shop because there were way too many people. And the clothes, are all piled up. It's like not new anymore. Everyone might have tried on it already. Gross. It's not like I'm a high maintainance person, but I couldn't bare seeing all clothes jumble up. I feel gross. Owh, I've just remembered. During the days when I was so bored, I went to almost all shopping malls in KL. I walked all of Mid-Valley, One Utama (both new and old wing), The Curve, Times Square, Sunway Pyramid, and Subang Parade. Where have I missed out? Hmm..If you gonna say Sg. Wang, well I don't go there! I had this talk with Sus and Kamarul about shopping in Sg. Wang. You get to see all sort of people. Of course, those teens, the fashion victim is what I call, the "la-la" style labeled by Sus and Kamarul. Lolx. But listening to them, its so true. Funny how people dressed up for other to see. Especially those teens in mini-skirt with leggings! I protest and detest leggings. We do. And those think so called goth make-up on their faces, with those fancy boots they're wearing. And urghz. I can't continue. That's for gals. As for the guys, Kamarul make it sounds so funny. Those funky hair styles. With the flare jeans. And the so-called like "tai-ko" shirts. Gee. It's really a good laugh he made. He made a point. These people dressed up like as if they're gonna perform on stage. Padahal, only showing off on the streets. He said he himself performing on stage do not dress up like how they do. If you're wondering, he's the basis for DragonRed band. Don't ask me. I haven't heard of them before. Not like I know any Malaysian's band.

Trip to China....Valuable experience indeed.

Something isn't right.....Lol.
Many had happened for the past weeks. Where should I start?
I went to China for vacation with my family, and both of my aunts. It was really an experience for me. I now know China people are very aggressive and persistent. I remembered, on the first day, we went to visit some place, we're on tour. It was raining. The moment I step my foot down, those people kept giving me umbrella. I didn't know what's going on. So I took it. Then I walked away. The lady shouted and told me to pay. Crap. I quickly gave back the umbrella, as I have my hoodie. She kept giving it to me and I kept refusing...Then she got mad and told me to take it...Hah! I finally took it and paid her RMB8. Crap. I don't need an umbrella! That's case 1.

Day two I'm in China, I fell miserably sick. Flu, cough, fever. Worse thing could ever happen during a trip. And I refuse to see the doctor...not in China. You might think I discriminate China people. I'll tell you. YES I do. I hate their food. Everywhere is served with pork. And I don't take pork. So I didn't have decent meal for the whole week in China.

And for the rest of the days, I just followed the tour guide. She brought us to boring historical places. I feel old. Everyone around me is old. Lol. I'm the third youngest person there, following my sis and bro.

The second last day in China, I went out to find my friend instead of following the tour. As I was crossing the road, I had a glimpse on the beggar. And "fortunately" he followed me all the way! I crossed 2 roads...and he's still following me! Crap. I was frightened. I gave him RMB5. Then he looked at it, and demand for more! Beggars can't be choosers. Bastard. I gave his another RMB10 and he left. It was scary...because it's late evening, around 8pm.

I then entered into the cab to go to some shopping mall to meet my friend. She told me it cost only RMB15 to go to our destination. But I ended up paying RMB 30+. I got so rip off. The cab driver took me to some flyover..fly here and fly there...just to earn more from me. Asshole.

Owh owh. Before I forgot. In China, at some part I forgot where. I think its Hangzhou. There's this Indian restaurant. I think it's Indian ala mamak. So they sell this teh tarik over there. Guess how much does it cost? Normally we drink a glass of teh tarik cost RM1.50 yeah? In China, they sell it for RM45. No joke! When I saw the price I go like..."What the heck. I could simply drink 20 glasses in Malaysia". Lol. So guys, plan to invest in China? Hahaha.

Overall, China is not a place for me. I can't even understand their Mandarin. I would die there!