Helplessly moody

I don't know what have gotten into me. Day has been dull. I was talking to Jeev. He told me much. What he said was right, but I just can't help myself. I'm hopeless, I am...

I want to drown my sorrows away. Kamisama, tasukete kudasai. So near yet so far.

Keith replied my mail. He said he would've go to Scotland. I think I would do the same. Scotland is a nice place, I just know. Many things I have here-I can't seem to let it go. But now it's all different. I think I've very ready to leave. Perhaps.

Jo, you know I've got so much to tell you. Li Yen, you too! I have got more to tell you. Li Yen! Li Yen, you're my ears, my eyes, my heart, my shadow. You know how much I love you. I really do. Often I'm very dependent on you. And I still am. Without you I'll go crazy. Without you, the Ginette before would've been long lost. Without you, I'll die!

To clarify things, I am no lesbo. It's just that I go both ways. Bi-sex is what they called. But I'm more than that. I'm really moody. I'm not in the mood. Doshite? Wakaranai. Jibun no wakaranai. Dakara, dareka, tasukete. Sabishii...honto ni sabishii. Anata wa doko ka? Watashi no oujisama...

Everyday, girl, I wake up and pray
That you'll come back home
And don't take too long
Cuz since you've been gone
Everything's gone a bit wrong
I wish you were here
Holding me near

You know I'd go out of my mind
If you ever left my heart behind
So I'm beggin' you please (so I'm beggin', beggin' you please)
Bring you sweet love back to me (Please come back to me)

If I don't have you (don't have you)
To hold on to (to hold on to)
I can't go on in this world alone
Baby it's true (baby it's true if I don't have you) If you say goodbye (you say goodbye)
Girl I would die (girl I would die)
I'm a star with no light
A day with no night
If I don't have you

Late at night I reach to hold you tight
But you're not there (you're just not there baby)
I know you still care (I know you still care)
And oh how I miss your soft, tender, lovely kiss
You'd give to me (to me)
So tenderly

We used to feel
That time would stand still
When I see you baby it will
So hurry home (so hurry, come home to me)
You know your man needs you so (oh girl you just don't know)

If I don't have you (don't have you)
If I don't have you I don't know what I'd do
To hold on to (to hold on to)
I just wanna hold you
I can't go on (can't go on)
In this world alone
Baby it's true (baby it's true if I don't have you)
If you say goodbye (you say goodbye)
If you say goodbye I would die
Oh I would die (girl I would die)
I would die if I don't have you
I'm a star with no light (no light, whoa!)
A day with no night
If I don't have you
You know I'd go crazy without you (don't have you)
If I don't have you I don't know what I'd do
To hold on to (to hold on to)
I just wanna hold you
I can't go on (can't go on)
In this world alone (in this world alone)
Baby it's true (baby it's true if i don't have you)
If you say goodbye (you say goodbye)
If you say goodbye I would die
Oh I would die (girl I would die)
Girl, I know I would die
I'm star with no light
A day with no night
If I don't have you